TheFclass97

Idk what, but some shit will be posted here... Let's see how far the rabbit hole goes ^_~. 

For those of you who actually read my garbage, lots of stuff has passed. For the most part, it's been well, only getting hit by fake people, hypocrisy and a good looking future for me... Well, as far as my future deviations I kinda got back into poems and might actually start a comic... However, that might take a while (while I might have good story telling, I don't really have great hands to draw them)... But I plan on doing some things after I get my head straight... For now, I'll keep my head in the clouds and try not to make a mess... And that's how I feel today. Thanks Dr.Deviant... Wow that sounds stupid.

Simply put, a lot has passed through my mind. Most of it is just school work and thinking of what I'm going to do. However, the one memory that keeps floating back into my subconscious is her I guess... even though I feel a bit less intimidated and tight before, I guess that's cause of the long break I had. But now I'm gonna try to slow that down, and even close the deal. Just hoping it works... and if anything, at least cool myself down after all this is over. huehuehue : 3 I guess I should try making a real quick poem later with this... man, I prefer writing more often to express myself. is that a bad thing? Not sure.... hehe... >.>

Simply put, I can't walk to her without running to a near by corner. I can't talk to her without acting like a moron. I can't even pass by her without looking so goofy and feeling so... empty I guess. It's the classic teen-crush hokey pokey! But this is real different... I had crushes in the past and never was really as nervous as many would be when they try to ask. But HER?! I get nauseous when just thinking of asking her! I become so nervous, i start to shake and feel like fainting... and I NEVER felt like that before, ever! Not even to other people! As soon as she goes however, I feel so normal again. Basically, after a long time of knowing her, getting comfortable with her, and even gaining trust, I don't want to screw up! At least I am not obsessed, it's just the thought of asking her...you know...out... or whatever. Wanted to make a poem of this, but I'm too Godsmacked by this situation. If I asked her however, what would it be?? If she says yes, great! But if no, then I'm still ok with it. it;s just the asking part, it's driving me mad! never had a crush that i felt this way before... and I know I could fit the bill...ugghh!

Hey to whoever reads my complaint entry... I mean Journal Entry. WHATEVER! Any who, since its a pretty empty place here, I can share my stupidity ideas and such here. long story short, people are liars, got so much in my life that's piling up into a car wreck, AND a sense of happiness I have to constantly keep up to disguise myself. But yeah... its becoming a mess. Mostly that I can be happy sometimes, but then bat-s**t insane the next. I don't think I have problems... do I? >.>...<.<.... Anyways, yeah, some people I have attached with for a while, I can now sniff they're lying sent like a dog on a hunt for his predator like owner. Those guys talk about be trail and stuff, saying things that make them look so trivial, and then they can't seem to spot there own dirt on their mirror of non-s**t-giving-relection of themselves... Point is, I'm getting kicked by some people who say that don't like liars, and can't seem to get their heads out of their ego and concience. so that's that... Lel :/


PEACE OUT
~TheFclass97